华人，还是马来西亚人？

以往放学时，有都会从后门速闪，可是今天我从大门离开，踏出讲堂，离开这具有深重意义的最后一堂课前，特地向前握了教授的手，当下的情况也只能用一句“谢谢”来代替千言万语。


我们打从小学开始就被灌输种族和谐的理念，尽管生活在一个多远种族的国家，可从小到大都活在自己的生活圈子里，从来没离开过大马华社半步，上课跟华人同学一起上，人住在檳島，就连逛街或者在街上游荡，看见的多数都是华人，极少接触异族文化，自然国语也讲的不流利。


思维逐渐发展，开始对时事产生兴趣时，却开始被政治洗脑。刚成年的我们还没踏出社会却被网路上一些种族极端主义和政治人物的种族言论清洗，还搞不清楚整件事情到底是怎么一回事，却已经自己认为大马不宜再居住。

中六毕业后，爱探险的我决定自己离开大马，看看这世界，开阔一下视野。

去了柬埔寨以后才发觉，自己国家其实没那么糟；听了捷克的民主革命经验后，才意识到一个国家迈向独立之路不简单；看见英国如何保护非洲移民的人权地位，才知道种族和谐来之不易；去了法国看见他们黑皮肤白皮肤通通都自认是法国人，才知道对自己身份认同的重要性。


我，是华人，还是马来西亚人，后者，成为了我在国际平台的身份。


接着大学开课了，那应该是我人身中真真正正体验大马多元种族与文化的开始，族群比例按照大马实况 6：3：1，不论在课堂里，食堂里，考场里都跑不掉这个比例，再无可逃避的情况下只好操着一口Rojak语言，坚持混了过来。

链接回文章的第一段，最让我感动的是这位教授，Prof. Mohd Ammyrul Ashraf。


这学期我报考了大马建国使（Nationhood Studies），那，是每位大学生的必修科，这科目被政府设定为必修科的主要目的是为了提倡种族团结与爱国精神。老实说，透过课本里的内容与考试的作答范围根本难以达到政府的目的，可是这位教授却把民族和谐的精髓成功的传达给我们。


还记得上第一堂课时，他问的第一个问题是：你，是什么身份。


教授点了几位同学们一个一个轮流回答，马来人的回答’我是马来人’，华人也很理所当然的回答‘我是华人’，接着他说你们都答错了，我们是马来西亚人！全班一片肃静，唤起了我对身份认同课题的共鸣。


他时常都会在班上分享有意义的故事与亲身体验，也时常苦口婆心的告诉我们要记得和谐的可贵，更有一次非常心痛的告诉我们他教过的学生尽然忘了他的教导，在社交网站挑起敏感又脆弱的种族话题。


学期的最后一堂课，他忽然告诉我们，来！现在我们来个小考！全班一片哗啦，糟了，上一堂课不是才小考吗？怎么搞的，今天又来？！接着，他告诉我们不需要紧张，你们的小考是认真的看这部短片，然后回去认真思考短片内容，接着，他便播放了一部关于华，巫，印，三位好朋友的故事。放学前他说：2020宏远，是事在人为，省略了其他科技通讯发达的元素，回归到宏远本身最初的出处，就是希望大马人民能够像短片里那三位好朋友，结伴同行，迈向更好的未来！


这句话，深深的烙印在我的脑海里，也非常的耐人寻味。


反问自己吧，你，是什么人？马来西亚在你心中的地位是什么？

My First Car!

Finally! Finally! I've got my new car!

My parents have been planning to get me a new car this month. well, I was asked to choose any car but the budget limited to below RM55k. Well, you know, when the budget is only that amount, there's only a few options and those car within consideration will only be local made cars.

Anyways, i'm not complaining because, hey, having a car is better then non!

I picked Myvi at first, my reason is simple, it's a nice car and i need the horse power, because i'm traveling to and fro from my university. We proceed into the loan application and I've submitted all the necessary document because I want it fast as I'm schooling already.

Fortunately it took more then two weeks to process everything. Wait, did i just said fortunately? I want the car as soon as possible! well, it goes like this, I saw an article about Proton's Preve, a C-segment sedan, which i wanted badly. I didn't consider it at the beginning because it exceed my budget limit, but after doing some comparison, although it exceeds my budget, but the money value pays off. It's even better then Myvi in some expect!

first drive

I regretted choosing Myvi after reading the article, but wait, the car is not ready yet, can I still change my option? I called up my dad and discuss with him, he seems to see the advantage of getting a Preve instead of a Myvi and agreed to change. I immediately phoned the salesman with joy! The best part is, after all the discount, I'm given a net price of RM58.5k, which is just a few thousand more then the original budget! well, i believe it to be a good investment ;)

look how happy I am!

Immediately one week after the decision, I've got my first car in my life.

Thank you mum & dad! <3>

我，与我自己

一场生日会，把大家都给聚在一起了。
本来打算到场嘻哈两下，见大家一面，吃一顿饱饭便掉头回家读书，谁知道老友相聚，一座，就是几个小时。

我的主席常常会告诉我，要我站在家庭比较不富裕的角度看待世界，老实说，她那番话从来都不带任何影响力，只有我跟我的几个死党在一起时，我才知道自己应该反省。

跟他们在一起的日子，我懂得自立根生，我知道什么事情都得自己争取，我懂得我得对自己的生命负责人。

今天的一番话，怎么让我觉得，我在大学的态度似乎完全不对了？

#prayforMH370

I've been travelling with Malaysia Airline, and basically I'm quite satisfied with the service.

I'm supposed to travel back to UUM that Saturday, but because I was too tired to drive, I skipped my ko-k and stayed in Penang for an extra day.

I was really shock when the news came out, MH370 was missing?

It bugged me the whole day. I decided to do something. I cold called a few malls to get permission to do a flash mob, but sadly I couldn't get the permission. Together with my sister, we did a candle light flash mob event at gurney drive.

I set up two big card board, one with information about the news, another one is for by passer to sign on it.

Shortly after I set up the card boards, people started to sign on it.

After i came back from dinner, few signs were added. Two kids 'volunteered' to be the maintenance team because the sticky notes i provided is not sticky enough, two of the kids keep on sticking those sticky notes which dropped back on the board. A random by passer used the wax from the candle to stick the sticky notes and I find that it is a good idea, so i put wax on those dropped notes to make sure that they stick on the board.

It is really touching to see people sending their prayers to the victims. I was enjoying every moment with my sister looking at those random by passer to put their prayers on the board. Deep inside, we wish that the victims will receive our prayers as well, regardless of religion and believes. We Care.

Love and unity was shown that night.

Flashback!

Dear dear~ Its already the final half an hour before 2014 and I've just started to blog!

So what to blog about? Well, 2013 is really a good year to me, perhaps one of the most meaningful year in my life! Lets go through my timeline!

January: I've just came back from my Hong Kong trip with my family and STPM is over! I'm enjoying every moment of my life!

February: So I went to Sarawak, and this is my first phrase of my backpacking experience! being host by a local Chinese Sarawakien and met two friends from Sweden!

March: Went to Beijing with my mum in early March, first time traveling alone with my mum, and I'm the guide! It's freezing cold over there, too bad the snow was melting.
I went to Cambodia during mid March, alone! this is my second phrase of my backpacking trip, and also first time traveling abroad alone! backpack with two foreign friends, one from Canada and one from France. STPM result was released during my last day in Cambodia. I was so nervous! I received a few message congratulating me before I gain internet access to check my result. I got 4As! although not 4 solid As, but I was so happy! This is like a miracle! I cycle with a ranted bike with joy to Angkor Wat again(half an hour away from my hotel), just for the sake of my merryness! That moment is so special, my whole cycling journey is covered by my overwhelming joy, and I'll never forget!

Merry Christmas in UUM 2013

So this is the Youtube link to a video i made during Christmas Eve, a random act of kindness, the crazy thing I've been talking about in my previous post. Enjoy ~

游子归家

虽然我在大学里生活了一个月半，回槟城却多达四次，这非一般的数目，相信在大学里没几个人比得上。
即使如此，今天在回家之前，我还得为亲爱的槟城写上一篇。

咱们这21世纪的Y世代，踏上升学这段漫长的路不算稀奇，留学他乡的有的远至英美国家，一年都不知能回乡几次，农历新年也只能与异乡同胞吃上一顿，Skype回家说上几句。
而我的情况比他们好多了，大学就离家乡区区两小时车程，每一个星期都会有两三趟巴士从校园出发，回家路程就象进电影院看上一部戏。不过每次说到回家，我心里总是会有一份莫名的兴奋感；回家，让人联想到那张温软的床，那干净舒适的私人厕所，餐桌上那热腾腾的家乡饭。回家，你能不兴奋吗?

当大家陆陆续续离开大学，当大家忙着整理行李，当课室走廊外空无一人，你知道你离你的家不远了；上课时想着回家要做的事情，谈话时想着在家乡的老友们，收拾时想着回家要带来的东西，上车时想着踏入自己家里的感觉。

那两个小时的车程，游子们不断地查看定位系统，不断地寻找路牌，不断地告诉自己，我离家很近了！

我亲爱的槟城！那漂亮的海峡，那繁华的岛屿，在标志性的渡轮里，看见了迎面而来的大厦，黄昏时分，夕阳下的槟城更显得特别壮丽，这时，脑里狂欢着，心里尖叫着，我告诉自己，我到家了！

槟城，我爱你！

My Weekends

Instead of staying in UUM, I usually spend my weekends in Penang. This is just the second months I'm here, but I had went back Penang for more then three times. Well, It's not because that I'm home sick, I just feel like going home and have a break from all those activities and get myself ready for the coming week.

Well, my grandfather was admitted into hospital not long ago. This is one of the reason I went back often. I was so worried, but he is getting better by now.

So, I was just on time for two big thing this week! my dad's new Accord have finally arrived and it's my grandmother's birthday! Oh boy! it's almost five years since my dad last bought a new car, I'm so excited with it because I'm allowed to drive it! Look at this beauty!

Celebrated my grandmother's birthday that night. Although it's just a simple celebration, but I wish that you like it :)

YiLynn's birthday

So I was suppose to blog about her birthday last week, but unfortunately I left all the photos back in Penang. We, the TL gang celebrated YiLynn's bday on the 16th of September, five days earlier because I couldn't make it on the 21st of Sept. Sorry Lynn, I really wish that I can be there during your birthday.

Anyway, I booked the restaurant a day earlier before the celebration. Guess what, this is the second birthday celebration at 32 at the mansion. A great place indeed for birthday celebration and fine dining.

well, we had a great time together, updating each other about our university life and oh yea, Hean Tee is joining me in UUM!

32 at the mansion is a nice place, but too bad, Hean Tee double dated again and I have to drop him at Abu to join his friends so we left in a hurry and didn't managed to take more photos in this beautiful place. Hean Tee, do you have to do this always??#

Countdown: 7 days before university

Day 7

Meet two best friends of mine in MBS, the TL gang! Didn't went out together for such a long time! I'm happy that everyone can make it today, although HT seems to double date again. Had our lunch at Morganfield's, Paragon. Well, they are currently having lunch promo from only RM16.90! Honestly, the service is really good, the waiters are polite and as for the food, I think a rating of above average is fair enough for them (based of the food I ate).

A group picture of us

YiLynn with her salad

Me with my killer face (I look more like madman)

Hean Tee with his epic self portrait post

Thanks to HT,  he gave each of us a group picture before joining Stef. I like it very much, going to keep it in my wallet so I have something to look at whenever I miss them. Yi Lynn is going to USM and I think HT will be joining her soon, so this group picture is going to accompany me for the next four years. Well, hopefully we can still meet up during our semester breaks.

We watched The Mortal Instrument after HT left. The movie is OK, although some of the part is really funny. I don't really like the main actor of the movie. He is a skinny guy, and he is not handsome at all, but I believe that the director have his reason choosing him. Yi Lynn said that he is charming in his way, oh well, the actor is successful as long as he is able to attract girls.

Had some cakes together after the movie at our old place - Delicious. Had a great time talking with YL. I don't usually go out with girls alone but I like to go out with her because I can be myself and we always have something to talk about.

Took this picture before going home, thanks to her again for the photos :)

Well, I was really quiet when we reached her home, so this is our farewell? I was really reluctant. I don't know how to say good bye, is this it? I really want to say Thank to you, YL for all the hangouts and being there for me, I'm glad to have you in my life, a friend that I'll never forget. I'm gonna miss you so much, take care, and all the best!

Countdown: 8 days before university

Day 8

I went to the club last night, it's my first time partying but I only had one or two glasses of alcohol because I was driving last night. Not a pleasant experience.

It's really hard for me to get up early, but I managed to join my family for an early jog in the Botanical Garden. Well, I cant afford to miss this once in a blue moon family day, especially when all six of us are here in Penang.

Had our family brunch together at 'New Zealand' cafe. I don't like this place when was a kid, I used to get angry when I know we are going to have our breakfast here because all I wanted is MacD. But things change as time goes by. Now I've learnt  how to appreciate the good food here because I think it's impossible to have such good food in my university!

Managed to meet up again for an English hi-tea at E&O 1885 restaurant. Well, we wanted to have our hi-tea at China House, but we can't get a place for six and there's no place for us to stand and wait. Although we have to wait for another half an hour to be seated at E&O, we were just too lazy to find another restaurant again.


Guys, if you ever plan to have an English hi-tea there, please be prepared to pay. We were told that sharing is not allow and we have to order six sets for each of us. Ouch! But you get what you pay for. Satisfying!

We paid our grandmother-in-law a visit after our hi-tea. I miss her a lot but I seldom visit her. Felt so guilty for not paying her visit often enough. I'm entering university very soon, I'll miss you. Stay healthy and all the best, I'll visit you whenever I can.

What's next? I'm meeting up with the Untahanable for a farewell dinner! And guess what, Piang, Saw, TW, TY and Jenn is joining us tonight! It's been awhile since we last meet, updated each other with our recent life and talked a lot about our university life soon. We are such a big crowd for a small place like this

Went to Esplanade for our second round, it's not really an ideal place for us to chat. Well, I didn't feel the feeling of separation yet, maybe it's too early, perhaps the feeling of separation will be stronger if we have our farewell on the last few days before university or the day before someone is actually leaving. 

After saying farewell to Piang them, four of us (HT, CP, YL and I) went for a late supper at Abu. Talked about friendship and love. I was really impressed and admire how CP dedicated her love to her boyfriend.  I wish that the others from UTB2 can make it tonight, or perhaps we should have another private farewell together with UTB2. We still have time, let's not waste it!

 Enjoyed my day although it's really tiring. Thanks for the day guys!

Countdown: 12 days before university

Day 12

What a restless day! Meet up with PY to settle something together. I never think that I'll bump into anyone there as I plan to leave once I've collected my cert in MBS, and guess what? I was there when they finish their school! Never mind about that. After done paying our university fee, we had Blackball together. It must be my lunch that make me so sick, stomach ache! Didn't really enjoy the dessert at all. I don't usually use public toilet, but what can I do? Luckily the toilet is clean. Ugh, so humiliating!

Went out together with UTB2 again, I'm actually quite lazy, we are going to spend two days together soon, do we have to meet up? But it's still nice to see them, or else it's gonna be me and my books again. Spent my evening discussing about the trip tomorrow, Oh! I haven't pack!

My seventh trip after STPM! Although this is going to be a short trip and I'm not travelling far, but yea, stay tune, I'll blog about it when I'm back :)

SO MANY THINGS TO DO BEFORE UNIVERSITY!
-photostat documents for university and PTPTN, and get them verified my the government
-buy groceries, electrical appliances, bed sheet for university
-buy stem hasil
-renew my driving license
-pack for university
-farewell with friends

so many things yet to be done, and I only have 10 days left (excluding my Cameron trip tmr)
God bless~

Countdown: 15 days before university

Day 15

CATS!
I'm not a fan of cat, and I prefer dogs over cats.
I never imagine that I'll be driving a cat home in my life, and yes, today I'll be blogging about how it happened.

I was on my way back from my gym and I went across an injured kitten lying in the middle of the road. I can pretty much ignore it but I know I must do something.
I stopped my car in front of the kitten (because it's blocking me), and the car behind started to honk. Idiot, show some patients!
I moved my car to the side and the stupid car immediately went over, ignoring the kitten! I was shocked! but luckily the kitten is still alive.
I picked up the kitten and leave it at the roadside, at lease it's safe from the ignorant drivers. When I'm about to leave, the Indian lady from the house (where I left the kitten outside her backdoor) asked me to remove the kitten, showing no mercy, she nagged "if the cat die, it's gonna become a carcass, and I don't want to settle it, bring it to the opposite of the road, no one is living there." "so you are just gonna leave it like that?!" "I can't help!"
Fine! and lady, it's injured, not dying! I then bring the kitten across the road. Again, when I'm about to leave, I saw two crows and another two birds flying above, as if the kitten is already dead and they can finally have a satisfying lunch after days of hunger. OH MAN! like seriously? I shut my engine, find a piece of plastic, covered my floor mat and unwillingly, went back for the kitten again.
I found myself driving a kitten home!
I was having a very hard time fighting myself against the imaginary germs and bacteria of  the kitten, and I can't wait to get away with it!

It's a mess under my car seat.
And can you see two small poo??!!
way to go kitty -.-

And here it is, kitty, you should just stay on the plastic! you are making my car dirty!











I can't live with a cat! But there's a person in my mind who's willing to take care of it. (at least I think so)
The hero is my housing area guard! He keeps a few cats with him and actually I'm really annoyed with his cats, but anyway, he might wanna keep this poor little injured kitten too!
He was not there when I bring the kitten over, but another guard ask us to just leave it there, he will tell the cat hero later.
That's how it ends.

Well, I'm not mister nice guy, but that's the right thing to do, and we have been learning about this since primary school. Remember those essays about picking up an injured animal and heal it with love and care? Yea, I finally have something to write about it! haha

Countdown: 17 days before university

Day 17

Meeting up with my old buddies again.
meet ZY, WZ, FK & Jack, yea, all guys.
I just figure out that my high school life is so out of balance! I don't usually hangout with girls during those days. Anyway, those boys are still so childish, and I think I might be as childish as they are when I enter form 6, people must think I'm crazy!
Watched the Unbeatable. I have been waiting for this movie for so long! and WOW! GREAT movie I have to say! Look at their muscles, how they fight, how they train! It somehow motivated me to train harder in the gym! I have to get one of those posters in my room when I enter university, keep me motivated! hehe
It's very sad to say that I can't quite fit in to their conversations anymore. They are still working very hard in the drama society, but well, I quited drama since form 6. So, yea. I don't feel like part of the gang anymore. But hay, this friendship is still worth keeping, we've been through so many things together anyway!

Went out with the UTB2 again after dinner.
What a night! HT over slept, over shoot while picking up Imn, YL's phone went dead when we arrived Sampson's place, but six of us managed to meet up at LK Western that night.
Had a long chat, they are talking about boyfriends, sleepovers and so on, well, I kept quiet most of the time, because I don't have a girlfriend, but somehow I feel lucky because I'm still free from all those responsibility and tolerance.
Great night, I have to say. Six people is just nice.

                     now here is a photo of six of us

         (finally remember to take group photo this time)

Countdown: 19 days before university

Day 19

I just realize that I don't have much time left before university,

Especially when you know that things are going to be so different there in UUM.

I had my breakfast with my grandparents and siblings and went out with two groups of friends today.

Had a lot of fun together with my ex classmate, I really think that I should make taking self portrait photos with friends a habit! I just realize that I don't have any photos with them to post here. 

Anyway, went red box with py and ck, ended up letting them tease me about my favorite song!

Meet up with ken after that to help him out. He is buying cloths for his brother's wedding soon, and he is having a hard time deciding what to buy. First time picking so many cloths from the shop without looking at the price! So shyok man! Too bad the cloths are not for me. Haha, but we had a great time.

Meet up with HY, a best buddy from HEHS for dinner.

We knew each other since form one, and you may know him if you ever heard about my form one crazy online game freak story. Yea, we used to play maple story together and talking through phone for hours.

Surprisingly I didn't even feel awkward meeting him tonight. We talk so much that I almost forget about the time!

8 years of friendship! Not easy at all! Although we didn't meet up all the time, maybe only a few times a year, but man, I'm glad we can still keep this friendship going. Oh, he also helped me during my campfire two years ago!

He is having a hard time recently, things doesn't seems well, but I believe that he will get through it, and I sincerely hope all the best to him.

Thank you for the day friends and family.

I'm so grateful to have you guys sharing this wonderful day with me.

Peace out

My Hari Raya With UTB2

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!

I've been locking myself in my room for days,

I can see the laziness in me has developed into a critical situation and I need a day out!

so I'm actually the person who asked my friend out in the first place,

but I turn out to be the guy who almost didn't show up because of pure laziness.

Anyway, here I'm, 9am in this wonderful holiday, sitting here in MacD waiting for my friends.

they didn't show up, I couldn't wait anymore and I don't want to have MacD's muffin as breakfast.

Come on, not today. I wanted to find something so healthy that I ended up with Ham Jim Peng (which is not healthy at all) because I've wasted too much of my time looking around!

Wonderful!

First stop, Penang Hill!

I feel ashamed to tell you that, I've never really been to Penang Hill!

anyway, I made it today.

to my surprise, we actually got a better cable car then Hong Kong's The Peak!

well, it's a cloudy day, and the peak is covered with mist, so we didn't really get a great view of Penang.

But i believe that It's going to be beautiful up here if the day is great.

here is a group photo of us, one with PL and one with me.

oh and the guy with purple shirt is CP's boyfriend

20th Birthday

 Celebrating my 20th birthday with the UTB2.

Didn't celebrate during the actual day because I'm with my family.

What can I say,
I was late for the BBQ party actually (sorry),
arrived there around 9 something,
I was a little bit defensive that night,
don't want to be fooled by them,
I guest I'm over protective.

here is how it goes:
Hean Tee asked me out earlier and he changed the time from 7 to 8pm that day.
I arrived home around 6 something and waited for his call.
He didn't reply me until 8 something,
and I'm actually very hungry and had taken my dinner by the time he replied.
I thought he is gonna cancel the celebration (he told me only PL and SY can make it, pretty hard to believe huh?)!

okey, so I drove to paradise and I didn't pick up PL's phone call,
purposely.(I'm driving that time)
Who knows what will he come up with, his words are very convincing sometimes.

walk along the beach and saw them because of the bright light and loud voice.

Okey, didn't expect there's gonna be a BBQ party,
nice surprise, and I do appreciate it.
Always wanted to have a BBQ party there ever since the last time (which I guess it's almost one or two years ago)

and I suddenly realise HT and CP were gone and they came out with this, my birthday cake from Jenny's cake house.

annoying me with annoying post

 our food, thanks to PL and SY, they were grilling for us all the time!

and lastly, a group photo of us (glad to be surrounded by lengluis. haha)

 I'm happy with the celebration and special thanks to HT,

being told that he contribute a lot.

was expecting some alcohol and maybe an overnight stay actually,

but that's more then enough.

Oh ya, and my birthday gift from the UTB2,

a cool poster of us with my botak profile picture!

haha, going to bring it to university so I'll have you guys with me all the time :)

*oh and I'm wearing my new birthday spectacles and shirt (both UK brand) from my family! look how I value this gathering ;) *

PS: I still don't get it why all of you greet me happy birthday on the 22th instead of 21th. All I can come up with is you guys pakat. But what for? LOL