As A Son

I just want to make you proud of me,

and i hope you were.

Winning Is Everything To Me

Success!

Thats the only word i love.

Winning, to me, is everything!

I use to won,

i'm born to win,

i want to win in where ever i exists!

And thats me!

When i lose,

i vanish!

Maybe i won too many,

sometimes,

i have to face failure,

What els?

thats life.

I will revenge!

I'm not quiting this time!

And no way i'm quiting!

FUCK you FAILURE!

FUCK YOU!

The Another Pathway

I took my result,

and i'm not satisfy with it.

I used two year to maintain good result,

i used more then half a year to focus on my final two exams,

but...

I still can't reach my target.

well,

yes, someone is happy with their one A,

some are happy with their 5A's 6A's and 7A's.

But how much they had paid to get that?

I paid more then what i should get!

Thats the point!

Maybe i'm not hardworking enough to reach my target?

should i prepare for my SPM 3 years ago?

Should i focus on my final two exams one year ago?

I did my best!

I tried my best!

But seems like people only care for quantities.

Everyone only ask for 'how many A's you got?'

No one ask 'How many A+ you got?'

I get 5 A+.

Thats five subjects more then 90 marks!

But no one care.

Socialising

It has been a while after my graduation.

I'm still hanging my self in the middle of nowhere,

starting to feel,

i'm far apart from 'socializing'.

Invasion

I was once excited for today,

hanging out again,

watching a big production,

World Invasion: Battle Los Angeles.

Yes, i'm wrong in the first place,

you can scold me if you feel bad,

but scold in a different way.

Please stop fucking around.

I wont scold a friend fuck so seriously,

i don't think i even scold my friend this way.

ITS NOT YOU, BH,

YES, I AM SAYING YOU.

I never thought you will scold a friend like that.

So rude and so serious.

You can scold me, as like the way you use to, but not this.

You can scold me for keeping you waiting,

i will be sorry and so embarrassed.

But not this way.

I told you, i don't like the word fuck so much,

that i only use this word on people that i hate so much.

You are using this word on me.

Do you hate me so much?

If its true, tell me then.

If its true, decline my request.

Ignore me, and don't hang out together again then.

Will you feel good if you receive SMS fucking you so many time?

I was so excited and looking forward for today,

i even thought that today will be a good day!

Then, i received SMS full of F words,

you can ask me why late with an angry face,

at least i will feel so so sorry to you.

But you give me F words for my first greetings,

that changes everything today.

I tried to be as fast as i can,

but my sister's activity ends on 12:10,

and my parents were not free.

I rushed down from home to guides HQ,

and rushed back home to drop her,

i waited Yuh Min awhile and at once i depart.

I wanted to SMS to tell you,

but suckers on the road give me no chance to think so much.

The worse thing is, after you scolded me, you went into MPH reading novel.

Did my late arrival affect you from your reading?

I am not scolding you,

i dint even put an exclamation mark,

i appreciated our friendship so much,

that i cant afford to lose such a good friend,

i just wanted to tell you how i feel with the F words.

Anonymous,

you fuck me,

you are playing with my endurance.

Resign

Finally, i told my father this is my last week working.

Feel reluctant for leaving,

after all, my colleagues are good to me,

some more, they were cute!

Well, what should i do for my coming holidays?

Finish my Da Vinci Code,

start a new book,

begin my preparation...

Who wants to join me for an afternoon tea beside the sea? XD

Oh, yea!

I'm so excited for my coming London-Paris trip!

Wahahaha!

I will be taking tuns of photo!

Dont be jealous ~hehe

A Turning Point

My father finally came back from HK yesterday.

I just had a serious talk with him.

About which school should i go.

I told him i had decided to go MBS.

Thanks to Boon How, giving me this impulse, deciding which school i should go.

But the moment my father know i want to go MBS,

He looks annoyed.

He's one of the member in the board of director of HEHS.

He told me:

HEHS gave you this chance to study in this school when no one wanted you,

HEHS raised you up when you were no body,

HEHS even build a whole new six-form building,

waiting you to use it!

I doubt my self making that decision,

i felt horrible!

But in that very moment,

my mum refute my father,

using some stupid rules of HEHS to support me,

and i gain back my strength for making this decision!

Well, Teh Hooi Bin played an important role!

I told my father about her:

What i did, is forever wrong!

And, even things i had never done,

she claims that i did it!

My senior lost the hall key,

i was just trying to help out,

i dint even hold the key!

and at the end,

MY WRONG!

Not that i want a stupid post in form6,

but its so important for student when applying university!

And i am very sure, i wont get a proper post from HEHS drama club,

I DONT WANT TO WASTE MY TIME DOING JOB THAT IS NOT NECESSARY TO ME!

And for another two uniform-bodies,

i know that i will be holding AJK post for my form6,

because i had spend my entire high school life on drama!

You know, some time i doubt that whether i am right or not to spend all my time in drama!

Well, at least i can give a try to get higher post in MBS,

its whole new to me!

My father kept silence.

Finally i cant stand the silence any more.

Since he dint agree,

there's no use continue talking.

i stood up and told my father:

You are not giving me reply,

i dont want to talk about this any more!

i am going up.

Then, he agreed!

That moment, i realize that theres no turning back for me.

Thanks to Boon How, my friend who gave me impulse,

Teh Hooi Bin, who gave me reason,

and finally,

HEHS, because i am seeking forgiveness from this school.

Fight!

I was in a bad mode today,

feel like fighting!

Being polite dose not make me happy at all,

maybe i should change.

Some more, i really doubt that going back Heng Ee is the best choice for me.

Should i go back? or should i not?

I always wanted to be in a new environment, new friends, new way of being me.

Any ideas?

Contradictory Expectations

Birthday Lunch With My Sister

Well, last Thursday was my sister's birthday,

since i am with her in KL last Saturday,

i decided to treat her a birthday lunch in Mid Valley.

Shopping around there,

i found a beautiful corner,

its like a garden with sunny light shining through the windows,

a grand piano in the center of the garden,

and its a restaurant call The Garden.

without thinking, we marched into this beautiful restaurant.

Fish & Chip. its the cheapest i can get, RM19+

Spaghetti for my sister, she picked it her self, RM19, so kind to help me save my money. XD

Fresh watermelon and freeze peach, RM11 each

Wild mushroom soup, RM10++??

and a desert. i forgotten to take picture for it.

RM95 for two person,

is that expensive?

but i think its worth it.

Leaving To A New World

I am not out dated,

i'm moving forward in a different direction,

leaving the crowd in my past;

I will move forward,

and i will never walk back,

the past to me, is just a memory.

And years later, its just a shade,

nothing in the past is going to change me!

爱？

请你别误会，

我只爱上我自己，

我们还有段长长的距离，

而对你的关心只是纯粹而已。

选择

继续做工吗？

我开始爱上了公司，

开始与同事有了话题，

开始融入了这个世界，

可是。。。

我是否应该停止工作，

开始读书了呢？

哦，爱我！

我想得开，

我要为我梦想起跑，

不会因为任何事情而跌倒！

一生中第一场演唱会

超帅的， 

昨天本来没想过会出席周杰伦的演唱会， 

由于我爸爸太疼我妹妹， 买了两张演唱会如门票，要我陪这她。  

我拿了假期， 中午从槟城出发。 

路途上我没睡， 好久没坐爸爸的长途车了， 

一路享受优美的风景， 一路享受180km/h的神速！  

大概四点左右， 我们便到了 Bukit Jalil. 

一路走进去， 看到路边在摆摊， 卖演唱会的周边产品等， 气氛超好的！ 

我妹妹还买了总值610零吉的绝版猎物呢！ 

拿着那么多的猎物还几辛苦的， 可是我有个可爱的爸爸， 特地弯回头帮我们载走猎物。  

本来以为是间很难过， 逛着逛着， 时间还过得挺快的。  

演唱会开始了， 超high的！ 我跟我妹俩喊了一个晚上， 把喉咙都喊破了！ 

看旁边的人都忍受不了我们， 还换了个位。 哈哈哈！ 

 不虚此行！

@.@

我很矛盾

我不想恋爱

^.^

真的很无奈

又是一天，就这样过了。

当你看到我写部落格，

就代表我很无聊。

生活真无奈，

坐着，很想读书，为考试而拼，

可是却毕业了，

躺着，很想快点睡着，却不想一天就这样过了。

看着面子书他们上传中五的毕业照，

我真羡慕他们，

可是这条路我走过了，

知道绝不可能回头。

随便写写，

随便写写。